02/29: can you believe it? i actually lived through yesterday alive. i FINISHED my english project, and also did OK on my history test! now i got spanish and compsci to worry about. but um... anyways sorry if i signed offline on you sometime during dis week... da computer probably froze and i had no time to get back online since its very likely to freeze again. now that dis week's nerd life is almost over (yaay!) i'll have some time to be human again =D

02/27: well... my moms car isnt doing all dat great - dis morning it was working fine but she went to get it checked just in case, and they fixed some stuff in da engine that was messed up... and then when she was picking up kids after school the belt snapped and the car went overheat and the coolant thingy blew up. so now da car's in the shop again - the good thing is that its the mechanics fault since they jus adjusted the belt this morning. but um... anyways hope everything goes ok. i got lots and lots and LOTS of homewerk today n tomorrow so i gotta get 2 work!

02/26: sheesh... i think my mom's car (mpv) really hates me... after piano lesson i was driving back and stopped for gas... then u know wat happened? the car DIED. it wont start anymore!!! grrr... so me and my mom were stuck at the brea Mobil for a while and then suddenly the car started again. isnt dat weird? anyways i gotta start working on school stuff now... dis week seems like its gonna be on the busy side. but o well... pray that i'll live through it =D

02/21: sorry for not updating much recently.... thats the typical result of nerd life- so much work, so little time... anyways, in case ur wondering what i've been up to - i jus got SoundForge at home (thanks prashant!) and i'm learning how to use it... and its SOO ADDICTIVE! now i can make professional-quality remixes! hehe... it takes so much time but its worth it! my first remix is britney spears 'not a girl, not yet a woman'. dun ask why... i chose it randomly. but its gonna turn out really well, and i'll put it on Morpheus when i finish it!

02/17: can u believe this? u know the chinese new year parade thingy rite? i'm IN it!!! hehe... United CHristian Church float was soo awesome =D i looked so stupid but o well... it was lotsa fun. who's number one? JESUS!!! who's number one? JESUS!!! god is good, ALL THE TIME!!! hehe... now i have that chant stuck in my head!!! well anyways i'll shut up now.

02/16: i did something 'different' dis morning - went up da hill to catch insects with robert n catheek! well its for robert's biology project and i luv catching insects once in a while anyways. we marched up there with nets and a bunch of jars... unfortunately the weather was sooo gloomy and i was sure there wasnt gonna be a single butterfly/dragonfly/bee/etc. well we caught lotsa those fuzzy beetles and pinch-O-bugs. but nothing special at all. well before we left i went down the hill to search for one last time. catheek (too chicken to climb down the hill =P) told me to lift up a rock to see wats under it. and i did, and u know wat was there? a big fat JERUSALEM CRICKET. i literally went krazy and caught that jc rite away. its the first time i saw one alive and i caught it! hehe... well if robert breaks any of its legs then im sooo gonna kill him. anyways... to all the other ppls worried about catching bugs - if u wanna go up there to get bugs lemme know cuz i wanna come too! =D

02/16: wow... last nite was soooo fun - after childrens cellgroup i went to Life with the rest of the "counselor gang" (wilson, eve, joanne, vivian). well i still dun consider myself officially a "conselor" but um... god only knows wats gonna happen =P. anyways the boba was great and i had soo much fun. but wats most amazing is the fact that my mom actually let me go. she knew i wasnt gonna get home until past midnite but still she let me! can u believe that? wow im sooo happy! hehe... after that whole dance incident (which is still always on my mind) i really thought my mom wasnt gonna let me go ANYWHERE or do ANYTHING. but still... i even asked her about it after i got home and she told me she never meant 2 be THAT harsh on me. well that kinda leaves me puzzled regarding her 'other' decision (u know what)... but at least now i can be sure i'm not stuck in my house forever. =D

02/14: grr.... its valentines day and i got so much stuff to study for - tomorrow i got 2 computer tests and a big physix test. and im soooo not ready! and again i apologize for not being online to talk to all my friends as much as i usually do. i havent really been in the mood for AIM lately... hope u can understand. anyways... hope everything turns out ok tomorrow... even though i think im gonna fail. o well.. wish me luck ok? =D

02/11: sorry i ahvent updated in such a long time. u probably know wats been going on in the past week. if u dont, read the entry on feb 5. basically everything's much better now. but the feelings still keep sinking in, and it still hurts everytime i think about it. well anyways... i got so much stuff done today - finished all my hw, re-arranged furniture in my room (to be finisehd next weekend), ate a buncha junk food, came online, and talked on the phone for hours =D. anyways... school's gonna start again tomorrow (return to nerd life...) wish me luck to liv thru dis week! and of course, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! =D

02/09: yaay! i finished re-doing the pictures page and now its back up! hope u like it! =D

02/08: really really sorry, but i had 2 take down the pictures page for a while. the server (geocities) is being an idiot and the pictures page always ends up making my entire site get shut down for an hour. anyways, i'm almost done fixing all the problems so its gonna be bak up soon! =D

02/06: theres 3 days i can remember that i consider the worst days of my life. one is 10/31/2001 (when i got in trouble at school). the second is 01/24/02 (last day of semester) when i realized my entire future was ruined because of my abnormally-low grades. the first one was my own fault, and i deserved much more punishment than i got. In response, i spent almost a month without one of my favorite pastimes - chatting online - so i could totally reflect on what i did wrong and turn myself around. the second one was also my fault. In return, i set a list of new goals for my new semester (see entry on 1/27). The third "worst day of my life" was um... last nite. im not gonna put all the details here, since im sure at least one blabbermouth will eventually read this. but heres basically what happened. there was a night that i looked forward to more than anything else... and it was getting closer and closer each day. but last nite i found out that my mom wasnt gonna let me go enjoy this night, cuz i didnt get 4.0 GPA. suddenly all my expectations became only a wonderful dream that never got to end. even worse, i pretty much ruined another person's life jus as badly as i ruined my own. i dun think i'm ever gonna get an opportunity like the night i'm gonna miss out on, even if my mom lets me. all i can do is wish people will understand what im going thru, and that maybe i'll actually have another chance to make up for what im gonna miss on that night.

02/01: wow... i actually lived through the first week of 2nd semester. isnt dat amazing? and i have an A in every single class rite now!! hope it stays that way =D. anyways, i love ebay!! hehe das rite... i sold another promo poster - for 10 bucks this time!! it was pretty scary though... the guy that bought it is in the army so my mom had to ship it to some army post office, which means she had to fill out a bunch of extra forms and stuff. theres 5 other posters that im gonna auction off really soon - wish me luck! =D

01/28: sheesh... second semester came soo quickly. i need more time to rest! i spent the semester break doing 2 things - worrying and setting goals for 2nd semester and cleaning my room. im trying to re-arrange my room a bit - to make more room for my ever-growing amount of car boxes, make room for a new (big) boombox, and to be able to remove the top bunk which nobody uses. its gonna be a LOT of work but hope my plan works! =D anyways... school was pretty fun actually. 2nd semester seems (so far) a lot more interesting than first sem... and guess what? i have FIVE classes with david (liu)!! isnt dat crazy? hehe anyways i'll post up my schedule when i have time... for now i'll shut up.

01/27: well... after totally hating myself on thursday after realizing how bad my grades are gonna be, i sorta concluded that theres really no reason to worry about it, since its not gonna change at all. instead i think its gonna help me much more to think about the new semester and how i can make things better. thanks sooooo much to all my friends and my mom, who helped me realize that im not really screwed for life. basically i realized that my grades are actually GOOD compared to what i really deserve. during the last semester i stumbled upon soo many bad habits its not even funny. The goodie-goodie smart kid that i once was somehow became probably one of the biggest slackers and cheaters in the entire school. i rarely actualyl DO my homework, but just BS the answers to get credit. on tests, when i feel too tired to study i eventually end up depending on cheating. also, i was kinda proud of being able to slack off so much and still pull off decent grades. it took me THIS LONG to realize that i was such a retard. i suddenly realized how thankful i am, just being able to stay at Troy. for everything i did, i really deserve much more punishment then a few really bad grades. in the new semester my biggest goal isnt to get perfect grades, but to get rid of all my bad study habits and have a new attitude towards school. if you happen to catch me BSing homework, please do me a BIG favor and remind me to stop. yell at me... kick me... i dont care. i really need your help. thanks again to everyone who still wants to be my friend, even after i became such a big jerk. i really hope everythings gonna change in this new semester.

01/25: jus letting u know that i made some changes on my homepage... i re-made the butt-ugly "main page" graphic to be much smaller and better-looking... and im gonna do the same with "about me", "pictures", and "links"... or watever else i havent done yet. the biggest thing i added was WINTER RETREAT PHOTOS!!! finally... i was able to scan them and upload them all. hope u like them! =D

01/24: i really hate to say this, but now that finals are over, things arent gonna get better at all. u see... i THOUGHT i would be able to work like crazy for a couple weeks, and then return to normal life after the semester ends (which is right now). but in the past 2 days soo much weird and unexpected stuff happened and now it seems like my entire life is screwed up... im not gonna go into that much detail here, mainly cuz im trying very hard to not lose control of myself. seriously... im about to go insane anytime. i really wanna either die or run away before my semester report card comes back - cuz i know its gonna be so bad that my entire life will be ruined. well im not really gonna kill myslef or anything... its jus that i really dun understand WHY everything is going so wrong... there were so many decisions i got to make since i first started high school - and it suddenly seems like i made all the worst possible choices and eventually ended up where i am now. The first 4 semesters were really tough, but at least i actually maintained the already-low grades i've been getting. they were nothing like this one. the last time i felt so bad was probably on october 31 (most ppl know wat happened) - but even THATs nothing compared to now. i'm officially screwed for the rest of my life... and theres nothing i can do about it.............

01/20: again i'm really sorry for not updating this page a lot in the past week or so. well finals are wednesday and thursday, and after that i'll be unnerdified again! yaay! hehe... anyways a few updates on wat to expect on dis site after i get unnderdified - winter retreats are all scanned and im in da middle of uploading them. since this page is running out of space, i'm using a separate account for winter retreat pix, which means its gonna take a tad longer. but i was able to make the pix bigger and also load faster =D. also, the auto show photos are already at costco and my moms gonna get them back soon, so i'll start working on that page too. anyways i gotta get back to doing homework. good luck 2 everyone who has finals! (wish me luck and pray for me too ok?)

01/17: really really sorry i hvent been updating this as much as usual - in case u didnt know, my finals are next week. in other words, i'm screwed. i need help soooooooooo much!!! anyways.... forgive me for being a big nerd... its jus this week!

01/13: yaay! i got a whole BUNCH of new pix today - a lot from winter retreat and one from forest home! and most of them are gonna end up in my photo section! jus gimme some time to scan them and then u can see the pix.. ok? =D

01/11: as u probably know, i'm a huge car-freak. and in case u didnt know, i love to take photos of cars and edit them into converted versions of the car that look as good as a real photo. well rite now i'm working on one to submit to Autoweek magazine's BWTM (humor section)! i'm almost done with it... jus some final details left. anyawys, if u wannas see it, click HERE. and lemme know if u got any suggestions ok?

01/09: u wanna know something really sad? go to my guestbook and see how many ppl signed it in the past month. how come nobody signs it anymore?? *starts crying* pleez... be a nice guy/gurl/watever and go sign it!!! pleez!?!? thanx!!!

01/09: sorry i havent been updating this recently... as u know, school already started again and i'm back to my original nerd life =(. theres already lotsa work to do, especially since finals are almost coming. but my finals are not too crazy dis year so thats good =D. anyways, in case i didnt mention this yet, the auto show is really really good - i wont give away any info yet, since some of u are gonna go dis weekend. but i did take around a hundred photos... and they're gonna be online as soon as i get the new site set up. its basically gonna be jus like the 2001 auto show site, except with new stuff. ok i'll shut up now...

01/05: sheesh... this is probably the busiest winter break in my life! but i think thats a good thing! first the cruise, then winter retreat, and tomorrow guess where i'm going... 2002 AUTO SHOW!!! yaay!!! ken also wants to go so hes taking me there! omg i totally cant wait! thanx ken! =D

01/05: i jus got bak from FCS (Family Christian Store) to buy more goodies! as usual, i refuse to pay over $10 for any regular CD, and search the shelves for all the best deals. they had no free posters *sniff* but i did get myself some amazing deals: 4 rare CDs for $1.82 total! two 1¢ cds, one for 80¢, and one for a buck. the cashier didnt let me get the two 1¢ cds at first, since it said "free with purchase of..." last time i was at FCS the cashier asked the manager about it and he said i could buy the CDs. i told her that and so she said OK =D. and u know wats even more cool? she accidentally charged all 4 CDs for 1¢ each... so i only paid 4¢ total! i didnt realize that until i got home and checked the recipt. but anyways... if u wanna go get the CDs urself, heres what they are: Newsong "Live - The Hits" (1¢, only one left!), Michael W. Smith "Devotions" (1¢, only one left!), Downhere "Special Advance Preview" (promotion CD, 80¢), and Mark Schultz "The First Noel" ($1).

01/05: HAPPY 2002!! hehe... wow, its my first time updating this site this year! anyways... winter retreat was HECK FUN!!! if u didnt go then u missed out big time! i had soo much fun, and at the same time learned soo much. its gonna take me waaaay too long to describe everything here, so ur gonna hafta ask me if u wanna know!