06/30: happy birthday betty!! waitasecond... isnt it someone else's b-day too? *looks around* crap! i forgot! *smacks self on head* if u remember pleez tell me! haha anyways yea ok so it was my b-day =). special thanx to everybody that gave me sumthin, or simply IMed/called to say happy b-day. soo... wut exactly did i do today? well first of all i went to church in da morning for my possible 'morning job'. for those of u who havent heard, i mite be teaching the middle school english/math class at church (the one that ernest is in charge of rite now, except hes too busy to continue and asked me to take over). well um... it was sooo much better than i thought. i knew a few of the kids already (from jr. cell), and the rest of them were all pretty nice too. im still very scared to take an entire class of kids, but so far it seems like im gonna go for it. i'll be watching him teach a couple more days, and probably taking over after that. so yea... pleez pray for me cuz im really really scared. ok and i guess that's all for now. o yea and one last thing - i feel sooooo freakin old now!!! hehehe

06/29: late-night update: first of all, seminar ended yesterday, and im sooo sad cuz i dunno when i'll ever get to see my cool friends again! if u happen to be one of them, i miss u soooo much already!! *sniff* anyways the coffeehouse was really good too. we actually got a drummer at the end =). and there were a few certain mean people *cough* who decided to suddenly leave and not come back... but oWeLLz... thanx everyone for goin 2 support me. hope u liked it =). and then today - went to church at 8 to bring the keyboard back (no it wasnt mine... i wish it was thougH). to my surprise, not a single person was at the english sanctuary. and so i opened the door (which wasn't locked) and went inside and suddenly bzzzzzz...... there goes the alarm. hooooooly crap i was sooo scared! anyways thank god nothing happened at the end. and then for lunch we had the BBQ picnic thingy - lotsa fun there too. and guess which team is winning?? *wink* hehe we had soo many smart ideas i.e. use our flag as a funnel / use charcoal to fill up the bottle. too bad our flag got confiscated =(. but yea... we're still winning so it duznt matter. hehe... and then veronica's concert. totally insane!!!! gosh i dun think i can ever prepare such a long program without dying first. anyways, dats about it for now. and i think i should go to sleep anyways, so i better shut up.

06/27: a full day of bill gothard seminaring... hehe... i started getting kinda tired near the end, but still it was really really good. and my special friends allowed me to have lunch and boba that was originally for their church pplz only =). and another good thing - lucy finally apologized for all the countless punches and kicks she gave me throughout the week and said she wont do it again! hehe... anyways i left the seminar early cuz i had to go to yamaha... and my student gave me a late graduation present - a hong-bao! *soo happy* hehe and then the "combined" cell meeting tonite, which at first seemed like POG + calvin (since all the sat. cell pplz came late *cougH* hehe). but yea... haven't had regular 4 W's in like forever and i hope all the AMC pplz that went will remember wut its like and apply it to our own cell! hehe... yupyup anyways one more thing before i shut up - tomorrow night is the coffeehouse! for those of u who dun know, its at RHCCC (the red-roof one) and i'll be playing keys along with jeff and some others from our beloved Troy Praise Team. hehe... and we get the whole afternoon to practice, so its gonna be really good! anyways tomorrow's the last day of the seminar and i think i better get myself some sleep to prepare to wake up early again!

06/26: it's almost midnight rite now, and after much work, the long-awaited moment has finally arrived. NEW PICTURES!!! hehe... lets see, there's a few all the way back from the Troy Tech fair about a month ago, plus my graduation and suzanne/walnut's graduations, and of course, Disneyland pix! hehe... anna wanted to know if there were any 'interesting' pix. well based on her definition of interesting, i bet theres plenty. hehe... so go take a look, and hope u like them! meanwhile im gonna go off to sleep now!

06/25: jus got back from Beverly Hills. yupyup... i went to Exoticar! for the first time in years!! i barely remembered wut the place was like, and plus they moved across the street, so i couldnt find it at first! but it was fun... bought a present for someone whos b-day is actually TODAY *cough* hehe... o yea and i saw a few diablos and modenas and maranellos... and a fake xj220 'convertible'! hehe... wut else should i say? o yea... virginie wrote me a letter! *happy* hehe now i gotta write bak! o yea and u wanna know something really really scary? last nite i found out that betty and i have the same birthday!!! isnt dat weird? she told me her b-day is coming up soon and i asked her when and she told me and for a second i jus froze, too surprised to speak. haha... and no im not gonna tell u when my (i mean our) b-day is... cuz if u wanna know then u gotta find out for urself! hehe... alrite well i guess i'll stop here now.

06/23: lotsa stuff to write about starting saturday. cell group - finally back to 4 W's again =). for Word we did the lil senior sharing time thingy, which turned out more like a planning meeting for the authors of "101 ways to slack off and get into a good college". hehe... but yea it was really good. and then sunday - couldn't go to church again cuz of piano recitals. and yes i said recitalS. hehe... one in the morning and one in the afternoon. aint that jus great? first recital - i arrived only to find out my teacher forgot to put me on the program, and i was soo afraid i went for nothing. but i still ended up playing, and actually i think its my best time (out of 4 performances for the same song so far). and then the afternoon recital - well i guess i had a little surprise when i went on the stage. the middle A doesn't work!! haha... and some other notes had problems too. so yea... it kinda screwed me over. but still i guess it turned out pretty good, especially since i made it back just in time for praise night. and as for the praise night, its soo amazing how i never have trouble finding my friends there. last time i coincidentally parked right in front of ken wu, who arrived at the exact same time. last nite when i arrived, kelley called me only seconds after i turned off the engine to see where i was. and the praise night was totally awesome!! the only problem, drummers pleez try to stay on beat! haha... yea but overall it was great. and yes i jumped =). i think im starting to be more and more jumpy after every praise night (and i think thats a good thing =) ). anyways, then the socializing time after the worship - first thing: KAREN STOP CHASING ME!! haha... and next thing (which totally surprised me) - i ran into megan dong (classmate from 7th grade who actually recognized me after not seeing me for so many years). and so we talked for like a really long time. im soo glad she duznt hate me anymore, cuz in middle school i used to be sooo annoying! (not that im not annoying now.. but yea u know wut i mean). anyways... then of course a bunch of UCC pplz decided to go out to eat. destination? DENNY'S! me and ken(wu) went to save seats first, and when the waitress asked us how many ppl, we casually (and honestly) said 'twenty', and she thought we were joking!! haha... well eventually she found out we were right, and she jus told us to sit wherever we want, and gave us the whole stack of menus! haha... and me and ken made a very smart move - we sat at our own separate table, and ordered without letting anyone else notice. so of course, we got our food before they even ordered. and it was fun looking at all the other jealous faces staring at us as we ate. and when we left, they jus got their food! *innocent smile* hehe... anyways today was pretty much workday. went downtown shopping with my mom and carol, and as usual i was there simply to help carry stuff (which i didnt mind doing at all). and then afterwards we came home, and ken came over to gimme some computer stuff, and we talked until i had to go to yamaha. and i was there literally the entire afternoon (until 7:30). and then at night there was that Bill Gothard seminar thingy. honestly i was kinda hesitant about going, since i was already gonna be late. but i kinda felt like GOd really wanted me to go. he put me in an abnormally good mood today, and my last student came about 15 min earlier than usual, so i got extra time to stop by at Quickly's for boba before the seminar =). and as for the seminar itself... i gotta admit it was pretty good. learned a lot, and had lotsa fun chatting with Esther, who i didnt know was gonna be there until i actually showed up and saw her. and i got to meet her friend betty, who left without even saying bye *sniff*. but ish ok cuz i'll be seeing them every single night until saturday! hehe.. yea i know very very long seminar. but im pretty sure its gonna be worth it. and actually i jus got back from church rite now, and im online only to check my email, cuz i didn't get to do that for 2 days already and i dun want my ebay customers to get mad at me. hehe... so yea im done now and i'll shut up and stop boring u okee? *shuts up*

06/21: gosh... seems like forever since i wrote here already! well um... walnut's graduation was totally INSANE, at least compared to troy's. they had the whole bird thingy, and even fireworks at the end. and there was that one crazy guy whos mom made a sign and had someone fly an airplane over the stadium to display it. anyways.. at the end ken(wu) me albert and joseph were gonna go eat... and then we found out theres a 'party' at BK's house so we all went there instead. and then came baldwin and venus and blessing and luia and ben(chen) and jonathan and a whole crowd of pplz! hehe... totally unexpected party. but yea... it was fun. and i got bak like around midnight. gosh i seriou5ly need to start making up sleep! hehe... anyways a quick update on the site - i already got back most of the graduation pix, and they all turned out pretty good =). i'll be putting those online, along with troy tech fair pix, disneyland pix, and walnut/suzanne graduation pix. estimated completion date - um... late next week, if not earlier. so yea... i guess dats all for now. o yea, and cellgroup's gonna be at my house today, and if ur reading this then ur invited too! =)

06/19: another fun day so far... jus got back from suzanne's graduation and bruce's house. first the graduation- its sooo much nicer than my 8th grade grad... like a hundred times nicer. and someone suddenly appeared in front of me and shes all 'are u calvin?'... and it was tiffany! hehe... too bad she had to leave rite away =(. didnt get to talk to mae and debbie and melody(fu) and all of those pplz that decided to leave so early! but owell... at least i saw jackie! hehe... anyways and then bruce's house - CHESS!! haha... its my first time playing chess with someone other than hans (not counting the times when i was really little). at first we were getting absolutely nOwHeRe. our pawns were totally in the way and neither of us could move anything without dying... and then bruce made the mistake of feeding one of his poor horsies, and from then on i kinda had the advantage. so yea... no need to mention the result. hehe... and then we played othello- another fun game... i havent played it for like the longest time, and i can't exactly say i won, cuz bruce forfeited! hehe... anyways then he busted out his PS2 and we spent the rest of the time killing each other and then eating lunch. and now im back at home again. hehe... anyways g2g now cuz my mom's class is having a party and i gotta help out. so yea... i'll shut up now!

06/18: went to hometown buffet with anna =). jus wondering... anybody know wut its like when ur tryin to keep a root beer float from overflowing, and someone else keeps on pressing down on the ice cream to make it come out faster? i dO! grr... i jus kept drinkin and drinkin! hehe... anyways i have piano recital tonite, and i desperately need to practice, so i guess i'll stop here.

06/17: a little warning to everyone - it's finally proven that when i chant something, it WILL come true. last nite i was playing yahoo pool with anna, and every single time i said 'miss' she missed. no exceptions. and everytime she said miss, i make =D. hehe... so yea, if u ever wanna play pool with me, make sure im not in a chanting mood. anyways, a little update on the site: graduation pix are already in costco, and my mom's goign again later this week, so expect them to be online within a week. disneyland pix will be sent in the day i get the grad pix back... so probably another week until u can see those, depending on when my mom can pick them up. anyways, one more thing i havent really mentioned. its summer!!! at least for me =D. so of course, i hope to have lots and lots of exciting plans. so yea... if u want to go somewhere or do something, pleez dun forget to count me in! jus like last year, i made an online summer schedule calendar. i wont link it directly to here (in case of stalkers), but if u wanna see it either ask me online or check my AIM profile soon, cuz i'll be putting it there. okee... i guess that's all i have to say now. so yea... for those of u still in school, good luck on finals! to everyone else... have a great summer, and dun forget about me when u make ur plans! =D

06/16: okee... church pplz are probably wondering where da heck i was yesterday, since i barely got to tell anyone about my absence. but i um... went to disneyland =D. yupyup... with lotsa cool pplz - krystin, her mom, her dad, serena, and jennifer. they came 2 pick me up at around 10:30 (very lucky for me, cuz otherwise i would have followed krystin's word and got there at 9:30!!). then we got to disneyland and parked and took the tram thingy to the front entrance and bought tickets (first sign of bankrupcy) and went inside. then mr/mrs murakami, without us asking, agreed to let us run off on our own and meet back at the walt disney statue at 2:00. so das wut we did. and i haven't been to disneyland for sooooo long that i barely remembered where anything was, so i jus follwed krystin serena and jennifer wherever they went. its really hard to summarize a trip to disneyland without omitting all the interesting parts, so i guess i'll jus try my best to briefly write about the whole day:
-first stop: Star Tours. there was like no line at all, and we got to sit in the front row. but da only problem is that i ended up in the farthest seat to the side (and its all *ahem*'s fault) so i was staring straight at the side wall. but yea... it was still really fun.
-Matterhorn (bobsleds): again, barely had to wait in line. believe it or not, its my first time on that ride (as far as i remember, even though my mom told me i went on it when i was really little). really really fun...
-Alice in Wonderland: i guess we chose a lucky day to go to disneyland, cuz the whole morning it wasn't crowded at all. alice in wonderland was the first ride we actually waited a long time for. serena busted out the first batch of her lifetime supply of "Special Cake" snacks =D. then we all watched teh lil caterpillar cars and tried guessing which one we woudl end up with. i guessed green with orange, and i was sooooo close! owell... anyways dats enough about one ride.
-Autopia: the first ride we used FastPass for =D. it wasn't all that fast though, since pretty much every other person had a fastpass. but anyways, i was behind serena, and the second car in front of her was going sooooo slow, so i bumped serena twice *innocent smile*. and i had to keep stopping too, so jennifer (behind me) bumped me too. but i didnt know until she told me afterwards. gosh.. why duz the bumpers hafta be so strong?
-Haunted Mansion: again... not too much lining up to do. serena was soo friggin scared! hehe... went on the ride, saw a buncha ghosts, and finished just in time to go meet with krystin's parents.
-2:00 at the Walt Disney statue: mr/mrs murakami werent there yet, so krystin and serena started playing this extremely violent rock-paper-scissors/slap-the-loser game until both of their hands were all red. and they kept slapping harder and harder and harder until finally.... krystins parents arrived and we all went to lunch at Pizza Port.
-After lunch: to help digestion, we went to the nearest sit-in show, Honey I Shrunk The Audience. krystin serena and jennifer were talking about it before we went in, and eventually realized they were spoiling it for me (since its my first time). but luckily i didnt hear them at all =D. i did one smart thing though - having a big backpack is a huge advantage when it comes to smuggling drinks into no-food-or-drink-or-smoking places. so yea... everybody else threw their sodas away =(.
-Indiana Jones: believe it or not, its my first time on this ride too. i heard so many people talk about it though, so i pretty much knew what to expect. but gosh... it was sOoOoO fun!! and im not da only one that thought so, cuz right when we came out we all went to get a FastPass to go on it again! =D
-Pirates of the Carribean: line was abnormally long, and during the wait jennifer took out a pen and began carefully marking serena's arm without her noticing. but of course she eventualyl found out, and eventually everyone began marking each other frantically. and u know one thing that makes me feel really stupid? i still havent figured out of the lil restaurant thingy in the beginning of the ride is real or fake! haha... if u know then pleez tell me, cuz im dying to find out!
-We wanted to go on Splash Mtn except the line was 120 freakin minutes, so we went to the nearest ride instead - Winnie THe Pooh! (gosh... my sisters gonna be soo jealous when i tell ehr i went on it!). it said the line was about 45 minutes, but i think it was more like twice that much. mrs murakami took out lil crackers for everyone, and serena once again busted out Special Cakes. and then we were all thirsty so we took out our water - except poor serena who didnt have one =(. and to make it worse, krystin took out a bag of hot cheetos!! haha... i didnt even think about eating some. and when we were finished with the food, we werent even halfway thru the line yet, so we had a brilliant idea - cArDs!! yupyup... we played big 2 and took turns holding the deck, since there was no table. and the guy in front of us kept staring at us like we were insane! hehe... then we got sick of big 2 and played BS instead. lotsa fun, especially since i won the first game. it was sooo obvious my last card was bull, cuz i kinda put it in the deck the wrong way at first. but amazingly enough, nobody noticed, and jennifer just kept going like nothing happened =D. so yea.. i won the first game. and the rest of it was hilarious - krystin decided to go on a BS-ing spree and BS everyone, except it took her a bit too long to realize that serena and jennifer were being totally honest, and by then she already had about half the deck =D. yea... so dat game took like forever, and then we kept playing until we finally got to the ride, which ended abotu 10 minutes before our indiana jones FastPass expired...
-Next mission: run as fast as possible to get back to indiana jones. krystin almost lost her parents! (and no its not my fault i had to walk fast and keep up!). hehe... but we all made it and went on it again. i made my second (failed) attempt to hide in a dark corner and scare krystin. the first one was kinda successful, except i ended up scaring jennifer instead. but yea, at least i got SOMEONE. and i was a bit more relaxed on the ride for the second time, so i let myself scream throughout the whole thing =D.
-Next stop: Thunder Mountain. okee... before i go any farther i hafta make a little confession first. i havent been to disneyland for a looooong time already, and the last time i went, i was a scardycat who wouldn't go on any ride that seemed anyhow scary. and the most 'thrilling' thing i dared to go on was pirates of the carribean. hehe... but yea, today was a bit different, cuz i kinda didnt want to chicken out. so i went anyways. of course the line was long, and we continued our exciting game of BS. my luck wasnt all that great anymore, because i think i pissed everyone off when i won the first time, and so everyone kept getting me back, and i ended up with like the whole freakin deck. and then the ride... to be honest, i was scared to death. but it wasnt all THAT bad, even though i kept screaming weird stuff the whole time. and poor krystin (who sat next to me) had to bear with my shouting. but yea.. i made it out in one piece (which was a miracle to me). and for those of u who thought i cried during the ride... its a lie!! i sooo didnt cry! why da heck would i cry on thunder mountain?? okee anyways while we were on teh ride, mr/mrs murakami bought some food at mcdonalds, and when we met after the ride we jus sat/talked for a lil while. then came an unforgettable moment - jennifer was asking about it's a small world. "It's still on a boat, rite?". me: "no, its on an airplane". krystin chokes half to death while drinking her soda, and couldnt stop laughing for like forever! =D. anyways, i was finally regaining consciousness after thunder mtn, when krystin decided she was in the mood for more screaming. so off we went to splash mountain...
-Splash Mountain: the line was like 80 minutes, so we decided it was worth the wait. first we continued playing BS, and i realized my luck was only getting worse. serena and i had basically directly opposite cards, so everytime it was my turn i had to BS something, and she always knew i was lying, so i always ended up with the whole pile! grrr.... then we started getting sick of the game and moved on to simply chatting. somehow we started talking about names, and i mentioned that jennifer is like the most common name in america. and so we decided to yell "jennifer!" and see if anyone turns around. and only one person did, and it was a guy!!! *scary* anyways, then jennifer found out the incredible coincidence that she has the exact same birthday AND year as carol (my sis)! hehe... and then finally we started getting closer and closer to the ride. and of course i started getting mroe and more nervous. and krystin kept asking "are you scared now?" gRrRrR!!! ok ok i admit it, i was scared as heck!! anyways, we got on the log "thingy" (hehe), and i kept asking krystin when the drops were coming. the first one was kinda freaky, and 2nd one was ok. and then the third one... OH MY GOSH i swear i almost died there. but it went so fast that before i could say a single cuss word, i was already at the end. *sigh of relief* and i must be honest, after going on it once i wont mind going again, even though i'll probabyl be scared half to death again when waiting in line.
-by the time we got out, it was like twice as dark as it was when we went in, and the security guards were already out with the lil glo-stick thingys directing traffic. we took a quick bathroom break adn went to the next stop, teacups! -Teacups: its been so long since i went on the teacups that i already forgot we could control how fast we spin. and apparently krystin jennifer and serena expected me to do all the work, and it seemed like they wanted to go really fast. so i kept turing the wheel faster and faster and faster and we started getting dizzier and dizzier and dizzier, and then i stopped it and went the other direction... and i didnt even realize how fast i was goign until i turned the other way, and by then i think i already got brain damage. hehe.. so yea we kept going back and forth both directions until the end...
-We wanted to go on Peter Pan next, except it was closed for the fireworks (which didnt start until an hour later), so we went on Pinnochio instead. and krystin kept forcing me off the railing thingy so i couldnt sit there. sooo eViL!! hehe... and then we went over to its a small world cuz it was a really good view of the fireworks. but we had about half an hour, so we decided to on the ride first.
-its a small world: apparently some people (*ahem*jennifer) didn't realize its supposed to be a peaceful ride, and instead started splashing water all over me. so i did the same thing back and we started a waterfight on the boat! anyways, when we got out, the fireworks were arleady going, so we ran back to the place that mr/mrs murakami saved to watch the show.
-Fireworks: sOoO gOoD! seriou5ly... i havent seen such good fireworks in a looong time. i dunno wut to say about it, other than it was soo pretty! hehe... but yea go see it for urself and you'll know wut i mean.
-next stop: shopping!! hehe... me and krystin were looking at the stuffed animals, and we both started wondering why they didnt' ahve any nemo stuff at the store. so we literalyl searched the entire store until finally we found the nemo shelf. and they had these really cool talking nemos, and i tried to start a conversation with him! hes like "hi my name is nemo" and then he said somethign really weird i couldnt even understand, so after trying several times i was like "screw you!" hehe...
-11:30-ish: we left disneyland and took the tram back to the parking lot. we sat at hte same seats on the same seats we came in, and i tried to figure out how to lift the middle row seat (since it was folded down to let serena/jennifer in). and i couldnt find the lever, so mr murakami had to help me do it. but then i learned my lesson, so when we go to coco's for a late-nite dinner, i folded the seat down all by myself! =D. o yea and one more thing, krystin had been begging me all evening to play games on my cellphone (even though she has one herself! =D). i let her play a bit during splash mtn, except she didnt know how to turn it on, so i took it back *innocent smile*. and then on the way to dinner i finally agreed to let her play. and it was sooo weird, i wasnt looking but i knew exacly when she was gonna lose on snake! hehe... and by the time we got to coco's, my battery was half gone!
-Dinner: it turned out coco's was already closed, so we went to ihop, only to find it totally crowded, so at last we chose mcdonalds. the line was still a bit long (FastPass please! =D) but at least not as bad, and while we ate krystin suddenly started amusing herself by flattening serena's bag. and pretty soon we were all attacking each other's food for no apparent reason. and the scariest thing: i was sitting there peacefully eating my french fries, and suddenly i had a lil flashback thingy and i started feeling like i was on splash mtn, just about to fall down the drop. sooooo weird... and everyone who saw me slap myself probably thought i was insane. but owell... so anyways we finished dinner and left at about midnite.
-On the way home: Serena started busting out her SAT vocabulary skills, and using words that didnt sound like english to everyone else (i forgot those words a loooong time ago =D). and then we jus kinda quieted down the rest of the way. i must admit, mr murakami is soooo good at remembering directions its not even funny. he remembered exactly how to get back to my house without any reminder, and even knew which house to stop! then the saddest moment: saying byebye. i dunno when im ever gonna see all of them again, and i had soo much fun i didnt want it to end. but yea... i kinda didnt know how to stop time. so anyways, we all said bye and i went inside... and so my wonderful trip to disneyland came to an end. special thanx to krystin, her mom, her dad, serena, and jennifer: thanx soo much for inviting me, giving me a ride, helping me break my fear of rollercoasters, and letting me have such a great time. actually, the breaking my fear part isnt exactly true, cuz rite when we got off splash mtn, they started telling me how six flags was like twice as intense. thanx a lot. hehe... maybe a few years later i'll be ready for that too! =D

06/12: its over. its finally over. i cant believe it... dis is so hard to explain, but im soo happy and soo sad at the same time. anyways, today was pretty much a big party day. first i went 2 senior breakfast, which was pretty good, but probably not worth the money, since its typical for troy to charge twice as much as other schools for the same events. anyways, after breakfast (at brea embassy suites (tut's)), hans and i decided to go hang out at the mall. well it was only about 9:45, so nothing was open yet. but we jus sat down and talked until the disney store opened, and hans bought a stuffed Nemo =D. then we went back to troy and said a few final goodbyes, then to tapioca express for our last game of chess (by the way, i won =D). and then hans suddenly realized that he was wearing tennis shoes, and that its too late to go back home to get his dress shoes. so we made a last-minute run back to brea mall, and hans bought wonderful new dress shoes for $20 at payless =D. and then we went to fullerton high school for *drumroll...* graduation. thanx sooo much to all my family and friends who came to attend my special moment =D. the ceremony was pretty much unsurprising - beachballs, foghorns, throw hats as high as possible, etc. o yea... and the one moment i can never forget - BABAAAAAK!!! haha... they actually stopped a while after reading his name, cuz they figured that the last time the class of 2003 will ever chant our special chant is simply unavoidable. anyways, the ceremony ended pretty quickly, and then came the most memorable time. everybody went out to the field to meet with parents, relatives, friends, and of course, cameras. i took lots and lots of pix with my friends, all of which will be on my site as soon as i get them. it was the saddest moment ever, everybody tryin to say our final words to each other and saying bye. i really dun know wut to say to everyone, except congratulations, good luck in college and im gonna miss u lots. seriou5ly... im gonna miss everybody sooo much its not even funny. actually, i think im missing them already. to all of you who consider me a friend, thank you sooo much for talkin 2 me and helping me feel like i'm welcomed at troy. and of course, i can't forget to give a special shoutout to my closest school friends - anna, karin, hans, and jeff. i really wish i knew you sooner, cuz it seems like we just met, and we're already saying byebye. of course, i know we're gonna talk and maybe meet in the summer. but i feel soo sad jus thinking i wont be able to see u everyday like i usually did. thanx soooo much for making this year my best schoolyear ever. thanx for always being there for me and helping me when i need help, and always putting a smile on my face everytime you're around. thanx for giving me something to look forward to everyday, instead of hating school like i did before i met u. even though we won't see each other as often, pleez dun forget that i'll alway be there to talk to anytime u need me. and as we leave and go our own ways, pleez dun forget me, cuz i know i'll never forget u no matter how far u go. okee... i guess that's all i have to say now. again, thanks to everyone who helped make my high school years the way they are - both good things and bad things, because rite now even the worst times seem like memorable moments that i don't want to forget about. ok i jus noticed it's pretty much impossible to end this entry. theres simply waaay too much stuff i want to say. but yea.. i guess i'll jus shut up now. again, goodbye and good luck to all the troy graduates. o yea and one last thing. CLASS OF 03 RULES!!!!!! =D

06/11: no more school... almost graduating... cant' believe it. its tomorrow!! sheesh... im soo not ready! anyways yesterday and today were both party days =D. i went 2 play chess with hans again yesterday, and then this morning was grad practice, so afterwards we all went back to troy (since hans had 2 pick up his yearbook). and then me, hans, jeff(ho), and marvin went to in-n-out then to AMC20 to watch 2fast2furious then to gameworks, where i finally used my 1-hour free card =D. lots and lots of fun. and never in my life did i see the mall so empty. the theatre had about a dozen people (including us), and gameworks was pretty much empty, since for most kids its simply a wednesday afternoon, and most ppl were still in school =D. anyways, tomorrow's even more partying - senior breakfast, hang out/eat lunch, graduation, and um... i dunno. anybody doin anything after graduation? pleez invite me! hehe... alrite i guess i'll shut up now. byebye!

06/09: "Graduation" by Vitamin C. very old song, but still good. honestly i never paid much attention to it until last week when anna brought it up on the phone and i decided to listen to it. and gosh its so hard not to cry... anyways in case u havent heard, i did a little twist on the song to make it more interesting, since most ppl say its getting too old. anybody up for some fresh new TRANCE MIXES?? hehe... yupyup... i made a trance mix of Graduation! took me about 3 hours of nonstop work last nite, and some finalizing after school today, and now its finally good =D. my opinion: the best remix i made so far. Comment from Jeff Ho when he heard it- he couldn't believe i made it. soo... wanna hear it? hehe... jus ask me and i'll tell u where to download it! =D

06/09: finals are almost done... one more test to go and i'm all finished =D. anyways, u probably figured i havent been updating cuz ive been busy studying. yupyup... so here's wuts been happening in my life: Friday- went to tapioca express again after school, played chess with hans for the first time in like forever, and the results were amazing. I WON BOTH TIMES! haha... he did the lil king/rook switch thingy, and moved his rook away, without realizing that his king was stuck in a corner with nowhere to run. hehe... how sad. anyways, enough about that. saturday- cell group as usual... pretty fun. watched bruce almighty (for the 2nd time), pokemon kept tryin 2 steal the lil wire thingy i found on the ground (its MINE! =D). sunday- church, then piano recital... i guess i did pretty good. its like my 8th or 9th year playing for yamaha... i feel soo old! hehe... then today. but i think i'll stop here for now, cuz im getting tired. i'll write the rest in a bit.

06/05: its lunchtime, and im enjoying the last cmc meeting of the year with a pizza party =D. anyways im jus sayin sorry for not bein online much dis week. its like the week before finals, and i have at least one test/project due every day. its makin me go insane. literally. after so much senioritis, i suddenly have to start working hard again. and then i have piano recital on sunday which im really really screwed for cuz i didn't practice at all. wish me luck. hehe... o yea and if u wanna come to my graduation, its next thursday (6/12) at 2:30. i have lotsa tickets, so tell me if u wanna come! o and thanx to everyoen who already signed my yearbook. if u didnt do so yet, sign it! hehe... alrite i'll shut up now!

06/01: wow... soo much stuff happened in da last few days. first of all the cell outing was really fun =D. i guess da only bad part was that i realized that 100% of our cell tends to not understand wut ON TIME means. but yea... at the end we all made it to downtown disney. and I FOUND NEMO! hehe... it was soo good! if u didnt see it yet, GO SEE IT! =D and after da movie we all went to in-n-out then to the praise night for db/walnut/wilson/ayala. i guess troy's represented too cuz we had like 3 ppl there. hehe... o and guess who i saw there... EMILY! hehe... and also dat one guy from emily's church *cough* hehe o and i also saw tiffany(liu)... i cant believe she still remembers me! we havent talked since like 2 years ago! o yea and at the end they got these flyers for some young women's conference thingy, and they kept tryin 2 shove them at me. and i secretly stuck them in emily's hood, and she didnt notice! *smirk* another important thing about the praise nite: i found out that troy ppl aren't the only ones that cant get things organized. little problems are simply unavoidable, and from wut i heard, they had even more problems than troy's praise nite crew did. not that many ppl were there, and my cell made up like 1/4 of the total population. but still it was sooo good. i luv the electric geetar... it made a HUGE difference in the overall enthusiasm. and at the end, I JUMPED! haha... can u believe that? i guess its cuz i promised kelley i would jump if a jumping song comes up, but actually i wanted to jump anyways =D. and then i went home and got a huge surprise - wilson wanted me to do worship this morning! *gasp* haha... of course i didnt mind, but i should have told him i couldnt make it, jus to scare him a little =D. and then today's post-church lunch outing ended up at some little restaurant (i forgot wut its called). chicken was soo good! o and i saw priscilla and melanie for the first time in like ages!! and they still remember me, and they remember specifically all the BAD things about me when i was little! aaaah! o yea and their dad has an acura nsx and he also got a lexus sc430! gOsH... lucky people... jus lemme have one of those and i'll be satisfied forever! hehe... okee well i guess dat's all for now. o yea one last thing - can u believe it? its JUNE! omg.... im sooo not ready for june! in a few weeks i'll be out of high schooL! *sniff* sooo sad! dis year was da best year of my life in terms of school - not too much stress, and most of all the cool friends that i met =D. im gonna miss everybody soo much! seriou5ly... dun be surprised if u see me in a corner crying by myself, cuz im sooo not ready to leave high school yet! to all u troy ppl: promise me you'll sign my yearbook, and promise me ur not gonna forget me okee? omg seriou5ly dis is soo sad i cant stand it anymore. i better stop now...

05/30: wow... havent updated for a while. hehe... well first of all troy praise nite was awesome, if u didnt come u totally missed out! and since we had a little break i got to go to dinner with karin, and she jus HAD TO pick burritos for dinner, and constantly farting while playing keyboard isnt necesarily a good thing. hehe... anyways for those of u who havent heard, i was at lollicup with andy n ken til 10:30 last nite planning out our cell outing. im sooo happy... tomorrow we're gonna go to downtown disney to watch finding nemo! yaay! and maybe go for dinner afterwards then to praise night (if they're still having it). anyways, if u wanna go watch finding nemo with me, pleez lemme know a.s.a.p. well anyways im in english class rite now and the bells gonna ring soon, so i guess i'll shut up now!

05/26: you will never believe where i am rite now. david guessed hawaii. pretty close. actually, im at the Troy High School lecture hall (auditorium)'s soundboard room. hehe... praise nite practice was kinda hard for me cuz sharon didnt bring her triton so i had nuthin 2 play on. but its not her fault cuz she didnt come from home. and i played a bit on piano anyways and so far its turning out great. o and about that san diego retreat yesterday... both good and bad. first of all i wasn't exactly ready for a multi-hour-long sermon after an hour-and-a-half car ride, so i kinda fell asleep. and finally everyone (english congregation) decided to go out to lunch, and i found out that the worship team decided to move practice (scheduled for evening) til early afternoon. so everyone went to eat and i got left behind. and in the afternoon there was nothing to do at all and i jus took a long walk around the block. i thought people would go to dinner but apparently everyone decided to put fun above food, and so i went on stage for the nighttime service without eating anything since breakfast (except an orange =D). okee actually the afternoon wanst THAT bad, thanx to kelley who (literally) dragged me into the middle of the dodgeball game to make me join. typical me - once i get dragged in, i have lotsa fun. hehe... anyways after worship at night we had the lil talent show thingy which turned out a bit too chinese-congregation-focused for most of us, and so near the end we decided to go outside... and finally i found out i wasnt the only hungry one, cuz everybody decided to go to dennys! yupyup... so we all went to dennys for late-late-night dinner. i was soo hungry i ordered a steak without hesitation. and the funniest thing - we were the only azns there, and we were soooo loud, so when we sat down baldwin was all 'be quiet, asians!' and all these mexicans sitting around us started laughing. hehe... and our dinner lasted until past midnite. so yea... when i got home i was tired as hel, i mean, heck. i jus ran to my bed and *pLoP*! hehe... o and one last thing - earlier today i was on AIM express in the same sound room im in rite now, and mayfly imed me and told me she saw me at the mall. so when jackie introduced me to debbie, she was there too, and i didnt know that!! AAAAAAH!!!! gosh now i feel so bad... we hafta go meet at the mall again sometime! hehe... okee anyways i have a feeling worship practice is gonna end soon, so i'll stop this here. were probably gonna go out to eat or sumthin *soo happy* okee i'll shut up now, bye!

05/24: okee... so maybe today didnt turn out as boring as i expected. in the morning ken wu realized that we were both bored all day and we decided to go watch Bruce Almighty. i invited jackie too and so we all went 2 AMC20 to hang out and watch movie. movie was sooo funny! hehe... and u know wuts so weird? i saw debbie today! haha... she happened to be at the mall at the same time i was! how weird.. hehe o and also jackie got her prom dress! and me and ken were da first ones to get to see it =D. *feels special* okee anyways for those of u who didnt know, im goin 2 san diego tomorrow for the retreat. gonna leave early in the mornign and leave late late night after everybody goes sleep. hehe... then monday im gonna be at school 12 to 6 for praise nite practice. yup.. im still on the team =D. jeff still wants me even though i cant make sunday practice. hehe and if ur free on tuesday night, dun forget praise night starts at 6:OO in the lecture hall! =D okee i guess das all for now. g2g get ready for tomorrow, so i'll end this entry here!

05/24:
Each day I prayed to find the way
To know what to say, what to do on that day
I asked God who to turn my heart to
It seemed like its true that His answer was you
So I made up my mind
Thought I might get a try
Didn't know that my dream was to fall
Suddenly it was clear
All this time I felt near
In the end I have nothing at all

Just a little too late
Why did I wait?
Had I spoken my heart
It would not be the same
Just a little more time
The chance could be mine
And it won't be just another shattered dream in my life

O why did I bring my hopes high
Why do I cry, thinking you could be mine
I thought I found a road for me bound
I don't know how everything turned around
Wish that I can go back
To the past, tell you fast
When my heart was still pointing at you
Cuz I know that your heart pointed straight at me too
Tell me why this dream failed to come true

Just a little too late...


dun worry... its not as bad as it seems. i jus had to put those words there cuz i didnt want to jus let this day slip by quietly. anyways, for those of u who tried, i thank u once again with all my heart. u all helped bring my heart to a level i never thought was possible for me. even though what i thought was a miracle failed to come true at the end, i know that at least i tried. and even though i can only imagine wut it would be like if i spoke my heart earlier, i know for sure that my heart will still be there tonight......

05/21: its over!!!!! at last!! hehe... today was the graduation ceremony for Troy Tech... i really cant believe i actually made it dis far. freshman year i was like soooo scared of having to do an internship... and now its all done and it wasnt scary at all =D. and the moment i'll never forget for the rest of my life: BABAAAAAAAK!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha..... i cant believe soo many ppl cheered for him. anyways, jus got home from a whole dat at the troy tech fair. for those of u who stopped by to say hi, THANX! if u didnt, U SUCK! haha j/k anyways i had lotsa stuff to eat/drink today =D. first TTSO served snacks (bananana/apple/cooky) during break, plus lots and lots of h2o that i drank during the program to avoid dying. and for lunch i went to baskin robbins/starbucks with hans (come on... its like 500 degrees... i couldnt help get ice cream!). and during our 3-hour break before dinner, we went to tapioca express for 2 more games of chess. gosh these were the longest and most intense games we ever played. nobody had major advantages and it always ended when theres like nothing left on the board except pawns. and the result? well hans won once and i won once. very fair =D. o yea and there was this faggot that decided to run across st. college when i was goin 2 lunch. i swear he came out of nowhere... ask hans if u dun believe me. and he saw me coming and it scared the crap out of him and he ran really fast and made it like rite before i hit him. it was soooooo f***** close its not even funny. luckily i was in a rush to get ice cream, otherwise i would have stopped and yelled the crap out of him. anyways... then we went back to school for dinner. i guess its pretty good, considering its free. hehe... o yea and those baloons that were on the tables. my table decided to start collecting them all and tying them all to a can of tomato sauce to see if we could make it float in the air. and we were really really close and we found out that someone else was doin teh exact same thing. hehe... so we decided to merge baloons. and the can flew!! haha... we kept in the gym and hans let it fly away before leaving. sucks for whoever gets hit in the head if it falls down. hehe... anyways i jus realized that was a LOT of babbling for one day. so um... i'll shut up now! =D

05/20: for some reason, god always knows when i feel like i'm in need of boba. a few weeks ago there was one sunday when i didnt buy boba cuz it was like $3.50 at funfun... and then it turned out that later in the day, someone on the chinese worship team bought boba for everybody. and then today i had piano class after school, and usually i would ALWAYS stop at tapioca express first... but for some reason i decided to save the money today. and it turned out that one of my yamaha students' moms came with an extra boba and gave it to me! *soo happy* hehe anyways, guess wuts coming up tomorrow. TROY TECH FAIR!!! im gonna be soo tired, but still believe it or not, im actually looking forward to it. gotta go finish my display now... bye!

05/19: gosh... 3½ hours at yamaha sure is tiring. hehe... and i didnt have dinner until 8:45 when i got home. but anyways... for those of u who havent heard, TROY TECH FAIR is coming this wednesday! in case u dun know wut it is, its where all the seniors showcase their internship experience for a whole day. i think the evening program starts at 6... if ur coming pleez tell me! and make sure u stop by and say hi! i'll be at the ViewSonic display in the corner (theres only 2 corners so i'll be easy to locate). anyways im busy working on my display rite now... its coming out pretty good so far =D. still a lot of work to do though... but i think i'd rather go sleep and finish it mañana...

05/17: someone on troy's praise nite team pleez explain to me wuts going on... im soo confused its not even funny. didnt we have the whole practice schedule thingy planned out? anyways i heard rumors that we're rescheduling it to next sunday... but jus to make things clear, i'm gonna be gone all day (retreat) so i wont be able to make it. and im not gonna change my schedule anymore cuz i already did so 3 times (for practices that ended up not happening). i dunno if i'm still invited to be on the team or not, but if so i'll leave monday free for the final practice. anyways... now to end on a more positive note, i saw ken and andy at tapioca express! hehe... and cell was um.. pretty good. and i know church tomorrow will make me happy too =D.

05/16: finallly.... its over! no more AP tests for the rest of my life! *jumps up and down happily* hehe... sorry i havent updated for so long. to sum up wut happened on the tests: gov was a lot harder than i expected - so many questions on history that we didnt really emphasize in the class. econ wasnt all THAT bad... most of the stuff i was confused on wasnt even on the test =D. the thing that bugs me the most is that the gov test ended during the passing period between 3rd and 4th, so we didnt get excused for 4th!!! sooo gay! i knew we all should have stalled a few minutes longer by making them run back and forth passing out pens. hehe... econ was even shorter than gov, so we ended up being excused for half an hour during 3rd period, and me hans and marvin went to get boba =D. okee anyways enough about AP tests. wut else did calvin do during the last few days? well he got a haircut, which he desperately needed. i went to a different person dis time cuz the person dat usually cuts my hair was on vacation, and my hair was so long it wont last until she comes back. so my mom brought me to some other place on tuesday nite, and omigosh u wont believe wut da haircut lady told me. she asked how old i am and i was like '12th grade' and she was like 'what?? you look so young! i thought you're in middle school!' haha... i was sooo happy after she said that =D. anyways, for those of u who havent seen me yet, my hair is a bit shorter than usual dis time. i had to get used to it myself too. and karin says i look like a turtle! *not sure if its a good thing or not* hehe... anyways last nite i went 2 diamond bar high's "spring magic" show... sOoO gOoD! sheesh i wish i can be up there too! hehe and omigosh i LOVE the keyboard they used... i think its a KORG! *drools* o yea and now that i mentioned korgs... tomorrow i might see one of my big dreams come true. im going to practice for troy's praise nite, and guess wut the oh-so-generous sharon kim is gonna bring? her keyboard! and guess wut kind it is... A KORG TRITON!!!! and if i pray hard enough, she mite let me play with it! hehe... i cant wait! ok anyways i think i better shut up now before i start going out of control. *shuts up*

05/13: jus a couple little brief updates. first of all, tim(yen) made a pretty good point yesterday in 2nd period. he said hes not gonna help anyone with prom hook-ups cuz if u cant find ur own date, then its a waste of money to go. very very true... again im really not all that concerned about it anymore. if i dun go then owell. hehe... anyways about the memorial day retreat, i had to change my mind again - now i'm only gonna be there on sunday (all day), and i'm leaving on sunday nite instead of monday. i jus found out that thanks to jeff(yin), i was re-admitted to the troy praise nite worship band =D. and practice is gonna be on monday. amazingly enough, they want to do 6 straight hours of practice (since praise nite is the next day). i really doubt its gonna work cuz ppl are gonna be really really really really tired by the end. but i sure dont mind =D. well for those of u who dont know about it, troy's praise nite is gonna be tuesday, may 27, so if u can come then come! hehe.... okee well im in 2nd period now so i dun have all that much time to write. but one last thing i hafta say is dun be surprised if i suddenly 'disappear' again dis week. AP testing is wednesday and thursday for me (govt/econ), and i have a LOT of studying to do. also i have to be at yamaha more than usual dis week, plus piano class later today and a bunch of other random things. so yea... theres a good chance im not gonan be online at all until friday. if u really need me then either bug me at school or call me sometime, ok? and dun miss me too much! hehe...

05/11: HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! tell all ur mommies i said happy mothers day! hehe... anyways a little update on wuts happening memorial day weekend - first of all for those of u who will be at the sandiego retreat, i'll be joining you on sunday morning until the end. my moms gonna drive up there for the full sunday program and leave at night, but she let me stay until the end =D. of course that duznt affect wutever i'll end up doing on saturday. im still really unsure of wut to do, but hopefully everything works out ok. so pleez pray for me (those of u who know wuts goin on). also, my AP tests are dis week (aaaaah!!!) i got econ and government (wed/thurs mornings) and i think im really screwed, especially for econ. government is ok cuz i can probably pull off a 3 with very little studying. econ... um... havent touched it since last semester =(. wish me luck cuz im gonna need it! hehe...

05/08: well... lotsa drama happened in the last few days. first of all i just wanna thank everybody who continuously encouraged (or forced) me to go to prom. i would never have made it this far without your help. unfortunately, things didnt quite work out the way i (and some others) expected. as of now, i'm back to doubting if im even gonna go to prom at all. for those of u who know exactly wuts going on (three pplz in particular), pleez understand that its not your fault at all. thank you sooooo much for all your help. just thinking of how much you tried to help me already satisfies me, and going or not going to prom is only a small part of it. its ur heart i really see, and ever since i got to know all of u better this year, i never saw school the same way again. of course, im kinda sad rite now cuz my expectations ended up not getting me anywhere. but still i guess im ok, and if god decides to let me go after all, he'll find me the most suitable date. ok i guess i'll stop now. its really late and i should be sleeping. but yea... pleez pray that god will show me what to do. thanks...

05/05: happy CINCO DE MAYO! haha... and happy b-day alex lan! okee dis is gonna be one of those totally random updates. karin came to school wearing red white n blue today, and she claims she didnt do it on purpose. (hmm... who knows ;) ). today was da last day of block shcedule for odd days, and tomorow is the last even day and me and hans are gonna go 'celebrate' at TE again. um... wut else... yamaha was fun. got my paycheck which made me really happi... and then i found out that one of the parents left me a stack of free ice cream coupons from baskin robbins cuz a long long time ago they came to class late and told me they were gonna pay for a full lesson but i charged them partially anyways. choe jus called and invited me to join some chinese worship organization and if i decide to join then were gonna go to vancouver together in the summer =D. its like rite before my b-day too, but i dun mind. hehe... anyways ken and andy are coming soon cuz were gonan go to dinner then to best buy! so i guess i'll stop here and go get ready...

05/04: soooo tired!!! aaaah! jus got bak after another sunday of running back and forth... first i had (regional) bach festival in the morning at some place really far away... and went bak 2 church at 2:30 for cworship for a special program thingy at night. and that took all the way until like 7:30 and now im finally home. actually ive been bak for a while already... but yea... and wut better way to end the day than to get a call from my piano teacher telling me i won bach festival! hehe... dat means im gonna compete in the next higher level in october (when im already in college)! =D

05/03: okee... a special request from Hans to have this entry written for yesterday. "I got owned by hans three times". yup yup... and i bought him a boba too! poor me... jus watch im gonna get u back someday! hehe... anyways ive been sitting in front of the computer all day, with the exception of piano lessons and cell group. cell was really really great. for those of u who didnt go, we had a discussion on how we want our cell to improve, and i think its probably one of the best discussions we ever had. and jus a reminder to everyone who was there: if you signed up for one of the Ws, dont forget to prepare for it! hehe... and PRAY! everybody PRAY FOR CELL! dat always helps =D. alrite well its getting late and i have piano comp tomorrow so i better leave now. sadly i wont be at church tomorrow either =(. it seems like my spiritual walk is getting really weak recently cuz i havent been to church regularly (without chinese worship, etc) for 3 weeks already, and plus we havent had cell in like forever. anyways, g2g now... byebye!

05/01: happy mayday! hehe... well today started off kinda weird. first of all there was dis sonuvabeachball driving an old mazda like its a porsche down pathfinder. and so since it's pretty much impossible to see the turn from my neighborhood, he almost ran into me, and it really pissed him off. he kept tapping his horn da whole time, and then we stopped next to each other at a red light. he kept on honking cuz he was mad at me... and i didnt even look back, and he wouldnt shut up until even after i turned. wut a faggot. hehe... other random updates - first of all i've decided to screw the ap calc test, cuz everyones saying it duznt give me any more college credit, and today i asked mr knox and he told me its pointless to take it, so i went to cancel it. now theres only econ and government to worry about. also today is hans' b-day (happy bday!!! =D) and im gonna buy him boba tomorrow. yup, we're going to tapioca express again. and no i didnt give up on trying to beat him in chess yet. i won twice already... good sign of progress =D. tomorrow we both leave school at 12:25 so we have al the time we could ask for to play.